The hate that fills so many people's hearts pains me to even attempt to comprehend. I try to find meaning in situations like this because otherwise I cannot grasp why any person could cause pain to so many innocent people and their loved ones left behind. Our nation unites under tragedy to become one of the most beautiful masses of different opinions, classes, religious views, sexual orientation, and skin color that the world has ever been privileged enough to witness. Love shines out hate, and if we all continue to hold hands together there will one day be no more room for hatred to fill in the gaps.
As I have been following the news I have realized the pain that so many sexual assault victims, like this women and myself, have to carry on a daily basis because of our justice system. The evidence was there, present, and available for this case and still only 6 months in jail and 3 years probation.
I couldn’t help but relate this back to myself and the fact that I am working to pursue a case that is over 5 years old and has little “evidence.” Because of this I have been wondering if a legal case is worth the pain it will cause me. I want to let other people out there know that it is ok to decide that going to trial might be too much for you to handle, just as it is ok for you to decide it is something you need to do. You need to do what is best for you, because it is a prosecutor’s job to make sure justice is served so sometimes your best interest isn’t the first thing in their mind. Make it the first thing in your mind, and remember you are strong no matter what you decide.
One of the major coping techniques I have adapted for myself, is that of distraction when something is bringing me down. Tonight, instead of allowing myself to dwell on all of the horrors going on in our world, I decorated my counter in flour, sugar, and lots of chocolate, while deciding which ingredients get along with each other the best. Tonight this just so happened to be in the form of my very own cookie butter brownies. Here is the recipe...
1 cup of Whole Wheat Flour
1/2 teaspoon of baking powder
1/8 teaspoon of baking soda
1/2 teaspoon of salt
5 tbsp of melted Earth Balance Vegan Buttery Spread
3/4 cup of Brown Sugar
2 flax eggs (1 flax egg= 1 tbsp of ground flax seed and 3 tbsp of warm water)
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
1/2 cup of rolled oats
1/4 cup of Chia Seeds
A splash of almond milk
1/2 cup of Trader Joe's Cocoa and Cookie Butter Spread
1/2 cup of pecans
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Mix all of the dry ingredients in one bowl and all of the wet ingredients in another. Combine both wet and dry ingredients into one bowl. Pour batter into an 8x8 pan covered in greased foil. Bake for approximately 20 minutes. Let cool for a least 10 minutes to let the brownies harden before slicing into 12 squares.